Stop This Train
Lately I find myself writing a blog post in my head about my dad and how I’ve felt since/about his death. I can’t quite bring myself to write it yet, though… it’s just too fresh. On a related note, however, I seem to keep coming back to John Mayer’s album Continuum when listening to music on my iPhone. Along with the song “Heart of Life”, which is a favorite of mine and continues to resonate lately, this song seems to sum up a lot of how I feel lately. Coincidentally, the song talks about his dad turning 68… which is how old my dad would’ve been this year.
Stop This Train
No I’m not color blind
I know the world is black and white
Try to keep an open mind but…
I just can’t sleep on this tonight
Stop this train I want to get off and go home again
I can’t take the speed it’s moving in
I know I can’t
But honestly won’t someone stop this train
Don’t know how else to say it, don’t want to see my parents go
One generation’s length away
From fighting life out on my own
Stop this train
I want to get off and go home again
I can’t take the speed it’s moving in
I know I can’t but honestly won’t someone stop this train
So scared of getting older
I’m only good at being young
So I play the numbers game to find away to say that life has just begun
Had a talk with my old man
Said help me understand
He said turn 68, you’ll renegotiate
Don’t stop this train
Don’t for a minute change the place you’re in
Don’t think I couldn’t ever understand
I tried my hand
John, honestly we’ll never stop this train
See once in a while when it’s good
It’ll feel like it should
And they’re all still around
And you’re still safe and sound
And you don’t miss a thing
’til you cry when you’re driving away in the dark.
Singing stop this train I want to get off and go home again
I can’t take this speed it’s moving in
I know I can’t
Cause now I see I’ll never stop this train
April 3, 2009 1 Comment
