Girls just want to have fun...

I had a pretty good weekend. And I think that the best part of it was spending time with the girls. You see, most of my time is currently spent around a lot of guys. It's mostly guys at my work, which would be the people I'm around the most, probably. And I have a lot of guy friends as well. Very seldom do I get a night with just the girls. But Friday night (and Saturday night as well) I had that.

Friday night, Shannon, one of my house church leaders, decided to have a slumber party. (And, judging from the reaction that I've gotten from any guy that I've mentioned this to... all of the guys reading this right now are going "ooh... slumber party...") Three of the girls that were there (including Shannon) have babies, but most of the babies were given to their fathers to take care of for the night. (The fathers were at someone else's house having their own guys night. Only guys night with babies... heh.) So we ordered pizza, ate junk food, gave ourselves pedicures, and talked about girl stuff (including, but not limited to, boys). The married women, wanting to live vicariously through us single folk, I suppose, were full of questions concerning our potential love lives. (I say "potential" because at this point, none of us single folk really have love lives.) Anyway...

I think this night was just what I needed. It was relaxing for me. Relaxing emotionally, even. It was reassuring to see that I'm not the only one that thinks the way I do. I beat myself up so much for the way that I feel and think sometimes. I wish I was more patient, or not as overanalytical, or less emotional, or less insecure, or more confident, or that I didn't have as much of a desire for a relationship. I just get so frustrated sometimes that I'm like all of that. But being there on Friday night and hearing the discussion... I realized that I'm normal. And it's ok that I feel and think those things. I'm a girl. We're ALL like that. Guys may get annoyed by it sometimes, but hopefully they love us in spite of that. And maybe we shouldn't just let all of our emotions hang out, but it is ok to feel them. We're not crazy because we do. But sometimes it becomes very easy to feel that way.

Overall, what I guess I really liked about this Friday night specifically was that it kinda felt like a celebration of being a girl. I don't do that enough... celebrate who I am. Heck, half the time I'm not even sure I'm all that happy with who I am. And I don't think I'm alone... I don't think I'd be wrong in saying that most girls (myself included) could use a lot more celebration of who we are. We sure need something to counteract all the pressure we put on ourselves, and all the beating up of ourselves that we do. Over things that a lot of times are just part of being a girl, and nothing to feel crazy over. But yet we do.

I dunno... I guess I just think of the alternative. I mean, I sure as hell wouldn't want to be a guy... you know? ;-) (And guys... don't even think about being offended at that. You know you wouldn't want me to be a guy either... heh.)